You can’t really understand the amount of love you have for someone until they’re gone. You can’t really be prepared for the ups and downs of dealing with the loss of someone so important to who you are as a human being. You can’t put into words a lifetime of love that a mother like mine gave to me. You can’t put a timeline on grieving.
You just can’t.
I find myself happy she’s no longer in pain. I find myself laughing at the happy times. I find myself crying as I hear ‘Dear Mama’ playing…realizing that the ‘I love you’ text messages I have been sending her since I was a teenager every time that song comes on can no longer be sent.
I won’t ever have the words, so I’ll just say…I love you, Mom.
