I Picked The Wrong Year For Such Ambitious Goals

March 17, 2020
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March 17, 2020 Nick Engvall

I Picked The Wrong Year For Such Ambitious Goals

For 2020, I set some ambitious goals. I wanted to start my own business. I wanted to wear a different pair of sneakers each day for an entire year without repeating and share it to my Twitter feed. I wanted to write a blog post every single day. I wanted to run 500 miles. The list goes on…

I am still on track for many of my goals but two WMDs (wrenches of mass distraction) have been thrown into my daily life as of late. The first is probably the most obvious, the COVID-19 virus that has pretty much pressed the pause button on a majority of the planet, especially here in Los Angeles.

The second, is our new pup, Mika. And yes, you can follow her on Instagram and TikTok.

The thing about distractions for me is that I despise them. I’ve always viewed them as the enemy of my productivity. It’s been a long time since I had a dog, and I’ve been looking forward to getting one for the last few years and then some.

I find myself enjoying the time running around the park with Mika, wishing that’s the only thing I ever had to do. It’s not that I am surprised that’s how I feel, it’s more that I am not used to the feeling of caring less about the lack of productivity. I hold myself to higher standards than anyone else possibly could, even higher than those in my closest circle of friends and colleagues. Normally, I would beat myself up for not following through on the things I committed to for myself back at the beginning of the year. This time around, I’m trying to be gentler on myself. I’m trying to recognize that not everything has to be at the crazy level of productivity I want to see from myself.

Sometimes, you just need to take a stroll through the park and let go. Take a break from the societal pressures that are blasted towards us on a daily basis and realize that the most important things are appreciating the time you have with family and friends, especially the four-legged ones.

By the way, she’s already twice the size of the photos (shot by Mitch Jacobs) below 😭😭😭

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Nick Engvall

Student of Life.

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